No, you are not,being older should not make you ugly in the eye of a caring friend.I do not have a "boyfriend" but I have a good male friend I can share quite a lot with,it is male company without the commitment of a closer relationship.But if you could make male friends who like you for yourself and not because you are young and pretty,(and those are not woth bothering with as they are shallow),something more could develop over time,I hope you do not think I am preaching to you. But those men who only will love you for your youth and beauty are not worth bothering with as you could not even make a friend of them.