I Can't Do This Anymore

Been there. Forcing myself to work out...worked out well. Anyway it goes, you're going to have to force yourself to do something.

Otherwise, get some breakfast essentials [powder or drink], so you can get some easy calories and nutrients. Eating is extremely important. Naturally. So is exercise. If you don't treat your body right, you won't be able to function right in anything.

Get off your ass and go take a walk outside. Or, if you have weights, lift them till you can't. Then wait a minute and do it again. Then again. Until you're so tired you can't think of anything except food. And it feels damn good, afterwards. Our bodies were meant to be stressed and pushed. If you don't, you suffer for it.

As for sociability, if you have been isolated for awhile, if you have any kid family members, try to spend some time with them. Or look inti finding a job teaching children. Anything can work. I was a swimming teacher as a teen. They usually have those as city jobs. Or anything else.

Why kids? Isolation studies done on Reece monkeys showed that isolation kills primate's sociability. It literally makes primates incapable of socializing. However. Some of the monkeys healed more after spending time with baby monkeys. Or kid monkeys. Kids have lifeforce. Vitality. Some evolutionary switch gets flicked in your brain that makes you want to protect them and teach them and just have fun around them. It can be very healing. Though, I'd advise not walking up to random children. >_>

In addition, being social is about give and take. If you simply want to vent at someone, of course they're not going to get anything out of it, and will hate spending time with you. You have to give in order to recieve. Whether that be intrigue or humor or whatever.

Bottom line. It's all in your hands. No one can save you. It's all up to you. What path you want your life to take. Time is everything. So stop pissing it away. Pick up the pieces with your broken hands and struggle and suffer to make a better life for yourself. Endure and endure, even if your legs break and you can't stand the pain: then you crawl until you can't move anymore. Become someone worth your respect. No bullshit "I can't do it." Bullshit. Do it, bitch. No justifications. No rationalizations. No excuses. Only "I will do it." And say it. Out loud. Often. For whatever it is. "I will."

Now go do some push ups. :)

There are only two choices. Life or death. Living in the middle is no way to live.

I was going to say good luck. But fuck that. Build yourself.

If you can't get a job, you can try volunteering. It's a great way to ease yourself back into the outside world and meet new people. It can also be added to your resume, which can raise your chances on being hired

I'm in the same boat as you but I'm getting tired of doing nothing and letting the years pass me by. I need to break this ugly cycle and live! So far I'm volunteering at an animal shelter. I hope to add a few more volunteering services to my resume so that I seem more hireable. If I can at least get a job in retail, I'd be happy.

Good luck to the both of us! :D

Just take it slow, start by going outside get some fresh air you are going to have push yourself since you have no one to help you so set small goals and when they get easy make them harder you are not going to snap out of it over night but you can start making changes that can get you going in the right direction

Hi. I was in your place a few months before. I kept getting rejected by every potential employer. They all found some reason to say I don't match their standards. I know how demeaning and demoralizing that is.
I just decided to go a step lower and apply for internships. Though I kept getting rejected in most, I got one call. I am a full time employee in that company. I hope this helps.

Doubt there is a higher power listening on SW. Immerse yourself in service to others until you get out of the funk. Otherwise you will wallow in squalor and never make any progress.