I'm exhausted...

I usually let this information slip in some of my posts or comments when talking about something else and never really complained about it but...

I'm exhausted.

Waking up everyday before sunrise (sometimes the insomnia makes me get up earlier, or sleep very late.)

Working every single day, sometimes staying 03 hours after time, sometimes until sunset...

Four to five 24h shift a month, sometimes it lasts till 30 or 36... including the weekend, so I'd go up to 02 and sometimes 03 (but rarely 04) weeks on a row without a single day off.

Let alone the work at home, the studying for the cases at home to pull off a fitting diagnosis and the entailed management strategies.

But sometimes... I wonder why I get myself tired this much... why do I allow myself to be exhausted this much.
I am not even in surgery or anything, what I do is purely medical reasoning. But I do have a lot of patients. Sometimes complicated cases.

Right now, I am sitting... waiting for a friend on bunch outside of the hospital... literally nodding off. I decided to write this while waiting, lest I let sleep claim me.