I've been very conscious of my gender growing up, i consider it to be part of my strict religious upbringing in a somewhat preservative greek province.. what they tell you in church school unbelievably messes up with your identity too.
Being a free spirit from young age i had difficulties to conform to female role of being the soft one amongst the genders. I consider now that i used to suffer gender dysphoria for years. Not because i wasn't feeling well in my body, but because i felt like i was born as less of a being, EXACTLY THAT TERRIBLE IT HAS BEEN, only because i was born a female. That conversation going on amongst the adults and the teenagers growing up.
Only lately, after practising martial arts for years in an environment amongst men -terrible again, i consider not having gotten the respect i deserve there from my peers- only now i feel happy in my vulnerability and that i finally found out which my strengths are and can even laugh on them <3
Lately a male friend told me that it is the female who should be considered to be the "strong gender" and not the man. I remember having played that game in conversations for ever. This time i told him that no, each gender has their own strengths and none is the strongest, and that answer truly comes from deep within.
When i think somedays to give up my artistic career because of its troubles, i then think of young girls who lack of role models, who just like me when i was younger, read books that admire and most are written by men, who get educated regarding sciences, arts, history, and there're mainly male names. For them i take strength to keep going. Yay 👍
