My therapist said to look at a picture of myself when I was a child to really see who I am, that innocence, that little girl who was needing love, and did not get it. But there was so much chaos, violence etc, that I truly don't remember most of my childhood, and, I can't really SEE me ...even looking at this picture of me at one years old. I feel so much kindness, patience, and love for all children I've nannied or as a teacher...yet I feel so numb that I cant feel anything looking at this picture.
I'm supposed to find empathy for that little girl who was mocked or degraded daily, even as a Toddler, but I cant feel anything 😢 How can I try to heal this?
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@kodiac Such a heartfelt song, thank you kody...I'm going to try to really correlate those lyrics to me as a little girl...I feel I didn't exist, so I'll have to tell her you deserved love like many people did get. You deserved it. (And you did too Kody). Ty again 🪻🫂
@Baybreeze You're welcome, somewhere along the line talking about the inner child become almost a joke ,but they are real and they never got to grow up in abuse cases. They stay locked behind the wall they built waiting for someone to save them ,i spent years waiting for someone to save me and now i have to be that someone the only ones that can help them is us .
@kodiac That's so true, I feel no one in my life really cares to dig deeper with me and my fear I don't have a right to Exist, grows. I think I'll tell this picture, you have a right to life, and even a right to real joy or love. I appreciate your reflection, thanks friend 🌷
