Trauma: Chasing pavements
I spent almost a decade chasing after someone I could never be with..
I don't know if you know how trauma works, but when you've had a difficult experience, whenever something else comes up, that could be related, even in the slightest to the painful experience that marked you, it sets off like an alarm in you, like "NO, NO, I DON'T WANNA GO BACK!"
And that's what it feels like.
I know I need to do it, but I am not willing to give that much attention, care and love, for nothing in return.
So yea, if there is one thing that hunts me, it would be chasing pavements.
I don't know if you know how trauma works, but when you've had a difficult experience, whenever something else comes up, that could be related, even in the slightest to the painful experience that marked you, it sets off like an alarm in you, like "NO, NO, I DON'T WANNA GO BACK!"
And that's what it feels like.
I know I need to do it, but I am not willing to give that much attention, care and love, for nothing in return.
So yea, if there is one thing that hunts me, it would be chasing pavements.
