I’m worried that I have an addictive personality

She did seem like her advice was very much worth listening to. I suppose I do want to be really honest with everyone on here. I’m conscious about what I’m doing, some other people have mentioned it to me, I’ve been brought home by the police once for being too drunk. I do try to hide it from those around me, im not quite ready to quit as it means truly looking at who I am and the things I’ve done, but I know I need to sort myself out soon. 🥺@SomeMichGuy

@Strongtea What you have to realize is that most people have made big mistakes and did things they have regretted. They just hide that side of them. Some of the things I have done absolute make be cringe. Even still I make bad choices. It's good you can be open and honest on here and it is therapeutic to do so. The sooner you turn things around the sooner you will become someone you can feel proud of. It's not easy. It will not at all be easy. But don't even think you are a bad person because you have made bad decisions because that is literally everyone.

Thankyou so much for taking the time to write that, it does mean so much to me and I know that you’re right. I do really hate the things that I’ve done in the past, but yeah I suppose a lot of people are in the same boat. @tiltawhirl

Ok thanks, I know you’re right, it just feels so hard. I have lots going on in my head today! Sorry. @Husher

@Strongtea it's okay, what makes you feel like "quitting"? I'm not sure what word to use. maybe try replacing the bad habit with good habits, like to calm your mind use relax techniques aroma therapy or trying new cologne could help, a different atmosphere could engage your mind this could be a system until you replace the bad, enough to slow down drinking. which i think you should aim for, we're taking steps to get through this just by talking, if you feel stressed about your image you can exercise? you can call an anonymous crisis line? and talk to them about these new things you're trying, aiming to create an empathetic space for you to reflect on your feelings and take steps forward. you need more confidence. if you add healthier habits into your life you're going to earn more respect.

Building up these habits might naturally ease things and create space for you to feel more in control.

Oh my gosh, you are really good at helping, thankyou so much for all that. 😊😊😊@Husher