I know it's just an excuse, but first Dolly Parton, then Tim Curry, now Cigarguy, and probably any minute now; King Harald of Norway, aka All of Norways grandpa.
On top of all that my Pantera (my precious cat) is showing signs that indicate it's time to consider letting her go.
The last one is ofcourse the hardest to deal with.
I'll regret drinking tomorrow since I'm still on antabus, but right now I don't care. I've been sober 4,5 months and will stay sober again from tomorrow on.
@TheRealBarbossa Ohh not your beloved cat. 😔 I have pets too, so I understand how sad you must feel. You gotta stop drinking though, and don't take antabus again; now that you know you're willing to drink on it if you have to, it defeats the purpose and just puts you in danger. You have to find a real reason to quit, something you won't change your mind about in a weak moment. Read horror stories about chronic diseases people get from drinking, and get a sponser that you vibe with? Solve the problem, problem being that you start drinking again after staying sober for months. You may even want some sort of alternative to drinking in weak moments? I find that relaxing stuff works really well; I hate being relaxed, but when I'm relaxed I don't feel like drinking anymore. It can even be a sleeping pill so that you can simply force yourself to sleep instead of drinking. I know in Denmark we have these green stinky pills but I forgot the name, they absolutely make you fall asleep but they're pretty easy to get. I think they're also sometimes used for people with psychosis, but they're fairly harmless, especially if you only take them rarely.
@Nightwings I'm gonna call my doc on tuesday and be honest about my drinking yesterday and today. He'll probably increase my dosage, or make me take a small dosage every day to avoid "cheat days"
I have plenty of reasons to stay sober, and am gonna keep at it. I just need alcohol to numb the pain now so I don't end up in the psych ward (again)
As for drugs, I don't do narcotics at all, and I'm already on antipsychotic meds to help me sleep.
That's indeed just an excuse, but a bloody good one... Hopefully the regret won't be too horrible tomorrow, and hopefully Pantera is just playing a trick on you and will be with you for many more years.
@MrSmartyPants nah, I can't have any easilly available if I'm gonna stay sober later. It's better (for me) to pour it out if I don't feel like drinking it.
@TheRealBarbossa You know best, a book that helped me quit drinking essentially is Craig Beck's Alcohol Lied To Me, i've only caved a few times for close to a decade.
