I’m sad right now
I’m sad about a couple things. I’m sad I lost the photos of my friend and I together, even though luckily I took a pic of the photos before losing them. I’m sad bc I can’t afford to go to Hawaii. I’m sad that I’m not able to go to San Luis Obispo or anywhere in lieu of Hawaii. I’m sad that a guy I love is becoming so upset, childish and a nuisance slowly over the years. I’m sad bc I might never marry him bc of this or be married or have children. I’m sad that my cat who is 18 years old keeps peeing outside of his litter box. He is old and we have tried to retrain him to go in his box so many times but he keeps peeing in places he’s not suppose to. I’m sad that we might have to put him down or put him up for adoption bc these pee accidents keep happening multiple times a day. Im sad im going to have to give him a bath in the morning, he’s gonna hate it.I’m sad that I havnt had sex in weeks. I’m sad that I’m probably going to reject or be rejected by an old lover of mine when we meet up at a concert in a couple weeks; friend zoned. I’m sad that I have to pretend that everything is fine in front of family and friends when really all I want is to be loved and cared for by all of them, and the man I love who is becoming someone else. It’s like he will have moments where I can see him as the guy I first liked, but then something happens and he’s something I don’t even want. I’m sad that I havnt lost all the weight I wanted to by this date. I’m sad that bc I havnt maybe I am less desirable? I’m sad that I’m thinking that bc if I am desirable still and I think I’m not I may hold myself back from opportunities, which then makes me sad to think I’m missing out. I’m sad that I can’t have a good nights sleep w this heatwave and responsibility to clean the floor where that cat peed…
It’s funny - just a few weeks ago I was riding high on my life and now it’s like a negativity has rolled in w the morning fog… Almost passed out on the freeway today bc of being directly in the dune no AC and lots of traffic. Luckily I was able to exit and get inside a near by ikea. The whole entrance area was spinning and I just plopped down on a box holding my head. Made it just in time. After a moment of sitting I went to the restroom and put water all over myself. Unfortunately their food court/bistro was closed due to renovations, so I ended up going to cava at the mall next door. It was a yummy way to cool down for sure. Those pita chips are excellent and hummus is so tasty…
I’m waiting for the urine buster spray to dry for an hour before wiping it away, as instructed. It rly does an excellent job of destroying the smell of cat pee. I’m laying in my bed I got new sheets. Atleast my bed is comfy *knockonwood* I don’t want to be sad tomorrow .. oh yeh I misplaced my debit card. I’m hoping it’s a my friend when I go to check tmrw. I’m sad I might have to replace it….mmm this bed is nice… ☁
It’s funny - just a few weeks ago I was riding high on my life and now it’s like a negativity has rolled in w the morning fog… Almost passed out on the freeway today bc of being directly in the dune no AC and lots of traffic. Luckily I was able to exit and get inside a near by ikea. The whole entrance area was spinning and I just plopped down on a box holding my head. Made it just in time. After a moment of sitting I went to the restroom and put water all over myself. Unfortunately their food court/bistro was closed due to renovations, so I ended up going to cava at the mall next door. It was a yummy way to cool down for sure. Those pita chips are excellent and hummus is so tasty…
I’m waiting for the urine buster spray to dry for an hour before wiping it away, as instructed. It rly does an excellent job of destroying the smell of cat pee. I’m laying in my bed I got new sheets. Atleast my bed is comfy *knockonwood* I don’t want to be sad tomorrow .. oh yeh I misplaced my debit card. I’m hoping it’s a my friend when I go to check tmrw. I’m sad I might have to replace it….mmm this bed is nice… ☁
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