I am feeling disheartend
I have not won or placed in an pageant yet. I love competeing even though I do not win or place. It is just getting an bit too much because it is constant. I always smile and clap for all the winners. I spent over 1K on proffesional pageant coaching. I know my time will come and I will win really big. I always have fun even though I do not win or place. It is still really hard not to feel disheartened