I don't even know where to begin with this

I have a family member who relapsed into alcoholism

A family member I'm very close to and care about a lot.

Her and my grandma are basically the only 2 people I've got.

Grandma is old, so she could basically die at any point

But the other family member says that she thinks she's dying because she's bleeding when she goes to the bathroom but refuses to see a doctor.

We don't even know what it is, but she's guessing it's cancer

She says she already accepted death.

It's almost likes she's teasing me with this.

She doesn't want anyone else to know that she's potentially dying.

Sometimes I manage to get her to promise to see a doctor, but then she says that when she's diagnosed she doesn't want anyone to know.
She just wants to die seemingly mysterious death.

Told me that she lost all trust in my if I talk to my therapist about it when I'm struggling to cope with the idea.

At this point I don't know if she's just screwing with me or not.

But either way, it's really doing a number on me.

I dunno what to even do anymore

But yeah, there's been a lot of drama and bs over this...

As you can probably tell, if you've been following my story for a while...

But yeah, sorry to get soppy.

I just needed an outlet,

Maybe some advice on what the heck I should do