I was looking back at some of my past messages and photos
And it has now been over a year that I have spent so many nights crying myself to sleep over all of this. I don’t know what to think, what to say, or what to do. All I know is it hurts a ton and I wish we could talk because it’s been completely breaking me and putting me into a spot filled with sadness and I can not keep surviving here it’s set me back so much and I have lost all of who I was when this all first started.
I wasn’t looking for you but when you showed up everything changed and now I don’t know how to get back to where I was before - But ultimately I guess it doesn’t really matter, and I only have myself to blame.
It’s hard I know, been there. But if only one person has the motivation and puts forth the effort, then it’s not the right relationship. Don’t look to get back to where you were before. Look ahead, wiser for having learned and grown through this experience.
