I see you. I feel you . In fact, I am 100 percent where you are! We feel things so deeply, yet difficult to explain. So many in life enjoy it because they have everything possible..and for people like us? Its not about material possessions, its not about people, its about acceptance and belonging..what is our purpose? What are we designed for exactly? Many others turn to something, alchohl, drugs, insane assylum pills, you nane it , theres no escape. Darkest times come in and we shudder at the what ifs..the possibilities of who REALLY cares? Family we loved..died . People we trusted, lied. Theres NOTHING & NOBODY left ..yes, i too wander am i just a cloud, a vapor, a piece of my waste as an earlier fasaud? I get it bro..trust me, you cant find anybody so you try to evolve, you try to change..something, ANYTHING to make it all make sense! And, at night, when thoughts grow more darker, and life just circles to a new day, you realize your worthless..thats how it feels right? If i mattered to anybody, then why aint i got family, friends, relationships that matter? See, i feel ya. You are the VERY FIRST PERSON i can relate to..maybe we both needed a connection of conversation to tell someone other than yourselves..DONT GIVE UP, but try to give in. Live with a smile, lift your head, im here too..you are not alone...messages from my heart. If ANYTHING, im here. Write to me, anybody anywhere anything you need, im here for ya. 🫂 hugs a million. You matter and now, i got a purpose too..seeing people who need someone to look for them. 💕
I dunno, I can related on many points of this. I should find something more productive to do with my time and just show up here much less. but somehow I always expect it to be a little different. somehow better.
This place is like a public notepad, you type your thoughts and others chime in with their views, or not. Some people are here to play games, but most just use it as a place to put random thoughts and experiences. Make jokes, kick the idiot in power, that kind of thing. Does it matter? no. Do any of us matter? no.