Tell me about your latest dream, if you have one. 🌠
I wanna know, if that’s okay — I know it’s kinda personal… and maybe I’ll try to interpret what it means from my own perspective. 🐸💭
18-21, F
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Journaling4MeAgain · 100+, F
iamrainfrog · 18-21, F
@Journaling4MeAgain For me yours is kind of your brain’s way of playing with wishes and possibilities. Going back into the past shows you might be thinking about old memories or simpler times, and hanging out with TV stars you know will become friends shows you’re hoping for good connections and positive relationships. I feel like you’re hoping for something, aren’t you?
Journaling4MeAgain · 100+, F
@iamrainfrog Well, I am hoping for something. Before I had this dream, I was working on integrating my inner critic with my core personality. When I was 9 years old, I experienced a traumatic event that silenced a terribly critical inner voice. In fact, it was that critical inner voice that led to a near-death experience.
After that experience, that inner critic was silenced. At first, I thought this was a good thing. It was a great relief not to hear the negative inner dialogue continuously anymore. However, over the following decades, I developed self-punishing and self-defeating behaviors, and I couldn't understand why. I had no way to control these behaviors because I didn't know why I did these things.
A few months ago, I started to realize that although my inner critic had become silent, it had not gone away. I attribute the self-defeating and self-sabotaging behavior to this silent inner critic. It seems to still be working in the background. I just can't argue with it anymore. So, I started trying to integrate my inner critic and my core personality again, so I have some idea of why I do the things I do. On top of this, the day before the dream, I started taking SAMe, or S-adenosylmethionine.
So, I guess that I am hoping to connect my inner critic with my core personality again.🙂
After that experience, that inner critic was silenced. At first, I thought this was a good thing. It was a great relief not to hear the negative inner dialogue continuously anymore. However, over the following decades, I developed self-punishing and self-defeating behaviors, and I couldn't understand why. I had no way to control these behaviors because I didn't know why I did these things.
A few months ago, I started to realize that although my inner critic had become silent, it had not gone away. I attribute the self-defeating and self-sabotaging behavior to this silent inner critic. It seems to still be working in the background. I just can't argue with it anymore. So, I started trying to integrate my inner critic and my core personality again, so I have some idea of why I do the things I do. On top of this, the day before the dream, I started taking SAMe, or S-adenosylmethionine.
So, I guess that I am hoping to connect my inner critic with my core personality again.🙂