I'm struggling today

My eyes won't stop itching and I snapped at a customer without meaning to while I was on my lunch break (it came out way harsher than I intended) and I'm really feeling the lack of physical affection today. I think I even had a split-second thought of wanting to die, but it went just as soon as it arrived which I think is a good thing. But right now I'm also somewhat anxious and I don't even know why. And on top of all of that I keep having less than appropriate thoughts that will pass but I can't seem to shift.