I'm really sorry you're feeling this way, Sarah. It sounds like you're carrying a lot of pain and self-doubt right now, and I want you to know that you're not alone. Even though it might not feel like it, what you're experiencing is something many people go through, and it doesn’t make you weak, bad, or broken. It makes you human.
You’re not a failure. You’re someone who’s hurting, and that’s not the same thing. The fact that you’re expressing these thoughts shows strength, it means you’re still reaching out, still hoping for something better. That matters. You matter.
It’s okay to depend on others sometimes. Needing help doesn’t make you a burden, it makes you someone who’s trying to survive. And survival is brave. You’re not pathetic. You’re someone who wants to grow, to connect, to love and be loved. That’s not weakness. That’s a beautiful part of being alive.
If you’re feeling overwhelmed, please consider talking to someone a therapist, a counselor, or even a trusted friend. You don’t have to carry all of this alone. There are people who care deeply and want to help you find your way through this.
You’re not going to hell. You’re not beyond hope. You’re someone with dreams, with a heart that still longs for connection and meaning. That’s not something to hate, it’s something to honor.
