I don't think I can keep up

My life is going no where. I feel like such a burden to everyone. I hate myself for the way I am. I have a family that takes care of all my needs and yet I'm still not happy. I hate that I depend so much on them to just stay alive. Everyday is a struggle. I feel like I'm a bad person. I just wish I wasn't so pathetic and useless. I wish I could be independent and have my own house and car like a proper adult. Find love and connect with other people my age. I hate myself so much. I'm a disappointment. I'm a failure. I'm going to hell.