I don't think I can keep up

My life is going no where. I feel like such a burden to everyone. I hate myself for the way I am. I have a family that takes care of all my needs and yet I'm still not happy. I hate that I depend so much on them to just stay alive. Everyday is a struggle. I feel like I'm a bad person. I just wish I wasn't so pathetic and useless. I wish I could be independent and have my own house and car like a proper adult. Find love and connect with other people my age. I hate myself so much. I'm a disappointment. I'm a failure. I'm going to hell.

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wildland

Good to see you back, but my heart breaks a little reading your words. You’re not a burden and you’re not a failure. The sea itself ebbs and flows and no one curses the tide for retreating. You’re still here, still breathing, still trying, and that’s already a quiet kind of bravery.

It’s no sin to be struggling; we all stumble through our own fogs and storms. Even the strongest oak needs the earth to hold its roots. You deserve kindness and patience as much as anyone, especially from yourself.

One day the mist will lift and you’ll find your own ground to stand on - a home, a heartbeat beside you, the independence you dream of. Until then, please know you’re not alone, and you’re not going to hell. You’re human, and you’re precious.