I am going to try harder. I promise.

Wallowing in your own misery is selfish, regardless of the intensity of the suffering or if your time on earth is nearing an end. Maybe even more so in that case. I must keep reminding myself of this. If I am still here, there is more to do.

5 years ago I made choices and took on responsibilities that means I cannot take the easy way out. No matter how bad it gets.

It’s not about me.