I miss my grandmother’s kitchen
Of golden varnished wood..
With windows overlooking the landlord’s Barn
And the cows and horses in the field surrounded by hills
The custard pies made with honey and strawberries and rhubarb from the landlord’s garden down the hill by the tennis court above the creek
The lil house surrounded by flowers
The gravel drive.. to this day any time i step on a gravel drive it brings me back there in my mind
The sound the memory .. the psalms, the singing.. she loved to walk and talk (the whole family are big talkers.. story tellers.. can’t get a word in edgewise around them)
I miss her but she was gone too soon, too suddenly
Everyone goes around remodeling and updating their kitchens .. but i like hers the way it is..
The landlord’s son wants to tear the whole house down when they move out but i wish he wouldn't.. it may just be an old decrepit house standing in his way to him but to me it’s full of memories..
I even remember him walking through the door with a giant bag of flour or wheat for my grandmother that his mother sent over for her baking (he was extremely handsome in the doorway light or in any light really)
A long time ago.. everyone is old now.. his son is already riding bulls and boxing these days
It won’t be long till my youngest uncle is a grandfather (he’s just 6 years older than me) i always thought my two uncles were the coolest in the world (they were) anyway his wife is just a year older than me.. we were expecting at the same time but i lost mine.. i had run off to tx to see some handsome guy i had been chatting with online (he did not know i went there and neither did i tell him or even know where in Texas he was) i latter found him but i had already been living with someone else by then my first bf Timmy.. even tho i lived with him i didn't know his name.. my mind ran a blank
I lost my kid before they were born but whenever i see my cousin i think “my kid woulda been just as old as you.. ”
It kills me a lil.. i always wanted to have the first grandchild i guess if you believe in heaven then maybe i had.. and they are with my grandmother now.. assuming she went to heaven.. i sometimes wonder where i’ll go.. i never imagined i’d grow up to be a slag.. i remember in Shabbat school Judy T telling us “you're too young for that” (committing adultery) yeah well look at us now 🙄
Big bad sinners all grown up 🙄 ugh
I wanna quit really i just don't know how.. old habits die hard.. i sometimes wish i could trade places with he hostages so they can go home and i can be skinny.. but i am not Israeli, i am not valuable as a hostage.. sigh
It’s an emotional wound they flaunt to the country to taunt them.. while the world ignores the plight of the Israelis trying to live peacefully in their homes and homeland a land that their enemies refuse to acknowledge their right to occupy. They make it a hate term “occupiers” they say with venomous hatred
Really now? If you only knew who really was occupying what
One day you will know.. till then you bring hell upon yourself with your own twisted misguided hate which is impounded by the hate returned to you by your victims..
It’s a vicious cycle which can only be stopped by stopping the lies and hate.. but it’s being pushed far and wide and deep and intentionally to manipulate and deceive
Shame on you mass media who push the lies and hate and make the victims out to be perpetrators and the perpetrators out to be victims
But we are all warped and immersed in our own lives
😳
With windows overlooking the landlord’s Barn
And the cows and horses in the field surrounded by hills
The custard pies made with honey and strawberries and rhubarb from the landlord’s garden down the hill by the tennis court above the creek
The lil house surrounded by flowers
The gravel drive.. to this day any time i step on a gravel drive it brings me back there in my mind
The sound the memory .. the psalms, the singing.. she loved to walk and talk (the whole family are big talkers.. story tellers.. can’t get a word in edgewise around them)
I miss her but she was gone too soon, too suddenly
Everyone goes around remodeling and updating their kitchens .. but i like hers the way it is..
The landlord’s son wants to tear the whole house down when they move out but i wish he wouldn't.. it may just be an old decrepit house standing in his way to him but to me it’s full of memories..
I even remember him walking through the door with a giant bag of flour or wheat for my grandmother that his mother sent over for her baking (he was extremely handsome in the doorway light or in any light really)
A long time ago.. everyone is old now.. his son is already riding bulls and boxing these days
It won’t be long till my youngest uncle is a grandfather (he’s just 6 years older than me) i always thought my two uncles were the coolest in the world (they were) anyway his wife is just a year older than me.. we were expecting at the same time but i lost mine.. i had run off to tx to see some handsome guy i had been chatting with online (he did not know i went there and neither did i tell him or even know where in Texas he was) i latter found him but i had already been living with someone else by then my first bf Timmy.. even tho i lived with him i didn't know his name.. my mind ran a blank
I lost my kid before they were born but whenever i see my cousin i think “my kid woulda been just as old as you.. ”
It kills me a lil.. i always wanted to have the first grandchild i guess if you believe in heaven then maybe i had.. and they are with my grandmother now.. assuming she went to heaven.. i sometimes wonder where i’ll go.. i never imagined i’d grow up to be a slag.. i remember in Shabbat school Judy T telling us “you're too young for that” (committing adultery) yeah well look at us now 🙄
Big bad sinners all grown up 🙄 ugh
I wanna quit really i just don't know how.. old habits die hard.. i sometimes wish i could trade places with he hostages so they can go home and i can be skinny.. but i am not Israeli, i am not valuable as a hostage.. sigh
It’s an emotional wound they flaunt to the country to taunt them.. while the world ignores the plight of the Israelis trying to live peacefully in their homes and homeland a land that their enemies refuse to acknowledge their right to occupy. They make it a hate term “occupiers” they say with venomous hatred
Really now? If you only knew who really was occupying what
One day you will know.. till then you bring hell upon yourself with your own twisted misguided hate which is impounded by the hate returned to you by your victims..
It’s a vicious cycle which can only be stopped by stopping the lies and hate.. but it’s being pushed far and wide and deep and intentionally to manipulate and deceive
Shame on you mass media who push the lies and hate and make the victims out to be perpetrators and the perpetrators out to be victims
But we are all warped and immersed in our own lives
😳
