I work so much that it feels pointless

Up until a few months ago the majority of my work was in the corporate world. I was traveling a lot and I was constantly working and I won a big company award last year which included a trip to the Dominican Republic.
I have always worked really hard because I actually love hard work but since I had a baby a year ago I had to switch my focus a bit and focus my work here at home. I switched to a less enjoyable job working from home within the same company.
My goals are to build my wealth for my family but I won't lie the work I'm doing at home feels a bit pointless.

I'm not delusional about working for a company I don't think there's any grand virtue in making money for some massive company. I definitely think taking care of my child is better, but my husband is just so lazy that everything I do feels so pointless.
My house is so dirty that I cannot even have guests over. My baby never seems to change clothes unless I bathe him and change him. My husband does not work nor drive.
Don't get me wrong my husband is the primary caregiver for our son but he does it so lazily. Everything else is left up to me and nothing is ever done I don't know.

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nonsensiclesnail · F

I'm so sorry, that all sounds so unfulfilling and frustrating, and thats not how being the mom should be.
Can you hire someone else in? someone who will do the job?
maybe this is not the job for your husband either.

REMsleep · 41-45, F

@nonsensiclesnail I thought about hiring some help which I can sort of afford. I mean I certainly have other bills that's Id rather pay down but hiring a girl once or twice a week to help tidy up might help my mental state but I dunno since he doesn't work I just feel that I shouldn't have to and beside this my husband hates having people over because it's messy in the house. He actively gets really upset if anyone sees how messy it is.

nonsensiclesnail · F

@REMsleep I am him in that sense. I cant have people in my house when it is not up to my standards and no one else in the house really gets that. But I also cant do it all on my own, so.... ive been toying with hiring someone to come in and I can sort of afford it. I don't want to though.
But, for you and your mental health, you need to get things done to a pint that you care comfortable. You have a tiny human to care for and a career, thats not a small challenge. And, something in your life needs to change.

Iwillwait · M

@REMsleep Great Idea! Get some help. You'll understand quickly how valuable they are and how cost effective it is to give you more freedom to use your time for family and earning.