Gas lighting I guess is the worst in ths world, I've such ruined mood now, people in life are like I didn't communicate, I'll be crying for help just
in front of them and she's like she didn't know then she's like in her story say whatever you say but I just want to make my parents proud oka she's not selfish though it's selfish world, may she achieve her goals but at the expense of what? Most of my female friends I've made in life just like this never care for anyone else other than them, it's hard to understand what is their motive, they take advantage of people around them then just make distance, they'll never help you if you die in front of them but they'll blame aftermath like why she didn't tell us well you just didn't listen me, I'm so stuck and I don't really understand why with time they change, it has been since childhood, I've faced this thing now I see tht as long as they can use you they'll put tht show of being a good friend and when tht ends they just show their true self , I'm never prepared for it even at this age so I deserve ths betrayals, I've no words for them and I'm sorry for it's my mistake, grateful to my sweet sisters here and some around me in life who were very kind to me , I'm so thankful to you guys , thank you for being good to me though I'm ths bad person as thy say why and anyway to everyone who have stood by me in this stupid life everytime I needed they were there, who never gave up on me though I've given up long time ago and most importantly God, fam , frnds I'm working hard and I'll work hard to make you guys proud of me , ps, I'm never proud of myself though,I hate myself d most haha bt its oka too