i feel like i'm too polite.

my parents raised me to be as polite as possible. as i've grown older i sometimes have issues simply fitting in with people my age because i have this internal censorship over how i act. i end up being really awkward because it was drilled into me to be polite and have manners.

this often leads to me feeling trapped. it's an appearance i automatically keep up. my class in college is very relaxed to say the least. and i can't fit in with my classmates at all. i can't let loose and be myself. it's a pretty weird feeling.