Is when you begin to feel numb. Because one side is so full of hope and has so much love and light to give, wanting to give my all, but the other side has become so accustomed to never receiving that same love in return, always feeling used, discarded, not important enough, or being made to feel like anything above the bare minimum is just simply wanting too much. So at the same time, I’m emotional, all the while also becoming completely emotionless.
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I feel I know this shoe, but it's hard for me to describe as it's so many years before now. I never doubted her love, I never doubted her want in giving, and to this day is (I may never talk with again) my best friend. She worked so much, while I worked through grief, and when the hurt let up, she kept on working.... (I never blamed her). It wasn't her being the bread winner which bothered me, it was I missed her sensitive nature so much I had seen before.
When you feel you love intimately, someone so sensitively, and that sensitivity in emotion is removed, it is the most hallowing and heart-wrenching feeling. I'd be still in my heart just to remember that feeling.
It's where we grew numb together from losing sight of what we both loved together of each other. Some ask the other party to break this cycle, but what if the other partner is asking this of you ...? One has to say something before you both break each other..
