How do I stop the suicidal thoughts?

I still struggle with suicidal thoughts, too... Not to the same extent as I did 20 years ago, but struggle with them, just the same. One day, in February of this year, I was having one of those moments Where I realized that I may not get to do EVERYTHING I want to do in my life and I'm okay with that. One of those things was wanting to travel the world, visit all it's exotic wonders before they disappear forever and have stories to tell to my friends about the places I've been and the things I've done in such places. And even if I never get the opportunity to go to all those places I long to go to and do all the things I long to do, it's no reason to abandon hope, because only a pessimist would abandon hope. I also realize, too, that if I were to take my own life just because I had a really bad day/week/month/year, etc, then everything about me, all my plans, hopes, dreams, ambitions, desires -- [i]everything[/i] about me would die with me.