For two months I've been waking up in the middle of the night angry, and then I can't get back to sleep until like 5am or later

I love it so much

It's really affecting my work ethic and ability to give a shit about anything.

All I ever wanna do is drink every day (it's the second of two days in a row that I haven't in two weeks)

I had strep throat and was drinking myself to sleep while on antibiotics anyway

Which made me feel worse. I made loads of mistakes at work.

Yesterday my eyelids were swollen from crying so much I was so embarrassed to be at work

I'm just pretty well sick of it and I'm a weak person for even caring this much but whateeeverrrr

I just don't wanna do anything except sleep. So I am gonna do that mostly so that I won't drink at least, then I can start trying to do art again and things

I'm sure lots of people will read this and think I'm being a whiny little bitch, but I am. I am unhappy, I have no drive or passion for whatever. I just wanna sit in a corner and rot

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froggtongue · M

Our minds and situations are not all the same. It's too easy to look at someone else and think they shouldn't be doing something. Things are more complicated than that.

I hope you get the help you need. Or just that time will pass and you'll naturally come around. Have you thought to see a therapist? I sometimes think I should, but I never do.

caccoon · 36-40

@froggtongue yeah I will be going back to therapy soon, I've found it helpful in the past

I prefer group therapy as it allows me to work on things on my own and give few details out loud, but gives me logical thought processes and tools to deal with emotional problems

froggtongue · M

@caccoon Hm. That's a good thought. I'll try to keep that in mind should I ever go and look for my own group.

caccoon · 36-40

@froggtongue I hope you find something that works for you!