Random stuff

Spoiler alert: Sorry about the random stuff I keep writing on here. I can't express any of them in real life. I'm stuck in a place where I have to act as if nothing is happening.

Idk what to do in that case. I want to bawl my eyes out and cry but I can't. I'm sitting in my car feeling motionless remembering everything that happened a few hours earlier. I have so many questions yet I can't even search for the answers. I'm wondering if I was even worth it.

Tbh this is one of those bittersweet moments. Like I know people are happy. Like honestly, that's what I've wanted all along but I'm not part of it anymore.

Guess that's life. I'm never going to be a part of anything.

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nonsensiclesnail · F

What happened a few hours earlier?

Beatbox34 · 31-35, M

@nonsensiclesnail Basically I was pushed out of a dear one's life.

I had no say. I was made to feel worthless and everything I did to this day didn't matter. It's like my existence disappeared within a week of not talking. For once, I want to disappear and never exist.

What I have out was my heart lol and I watched it get stabbed.

nonsensiclesnail · F

@Beatbox34 that is rough!!! I’m sorry that has happened to you.

Beatbox34 · 31-35, M

@nonsensiclesnail Thank you. It's okay. I'm just learning to live with it.