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Do you believe you can go back to your innocence?

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Magenta · F
Of course not. We sure can't go back to our virginity. Innocence Belongs to children..
ScarletWitch · 26-30, F
@Magenta lmao disagree.
Magenta · F
@ScarletWitch How so?
ScarletWitch · 26-30, F
@Magenta many religious people have retained their innocence. Because of Sin and God. I also have split personality and bi polar disorder. Where my emotions and feelings change. One day I am an adult. And next I'm child because I have age regression where I mentally only have innocence
zeframcochrane · 26-30, M
@Magenta I still have my virginity at 24. Guess that makes me a child?
Funny enough I'm always scared no woman will ever see that sense of boyish innocence and naivety I like to try and hold onto because I've ALWAYS been a hopeless romantic. At 9 I wanted to be a husband. That's been my life's dream. And after my drug addiction sometimes I'm scared I'm far from innocent.
Magenta · F
@zeframcochrane No it doesn't make you a child. I hope your dream may come true. 🤗

My response is coming from a 60+ year old woman with lots of life and experience behind her. Maybe a tad cynical. Maybe I see innocence in a different way too. I don't specifically equate it to virginity. My comment concerning that was a bit of an analogy. Because I have seen a couple middle aged adults say.. "back to innocence" or "I wanna get back to my innocence," which one can not do. And that's what the question was.. can you [u]go back[/u] to it.
zeframcochrane · 26-30, M
@Magenta Yes. You can.
I've met men and women in their 50s and 60s I'd describe as innocent.
Extremely positive, friendly, upbeat and heartfelt individuals whose life's mission was just to defend and help those weaker than them. People who you look at it or sit next to and it's like being in the presence of an angel.

If innocence is more than just "virginity" that some people tend to equate it to then, yes, you can 100% have it back all the time. No one is ever truly gone or lost.
I'm the proof of that.
I beat a fucking drug addiction. I never imagined I'd do drugs let alone become addicted and then I could NEVER see a way out of it but here I am. I beat a fucking. Drug. Addiction.
People who have never done drugs don't understand how fucking difficult it is. And the people who fall into it to begin with are those who had some massive trauma that never got dealt with.
I'm always scared I'm ruined permanently now because of it.
But I've been talking to little 9-year-old me and finding him again and I think he's back.
And he's proud of me. And if that kid is proud of me. Then I did something right. I came back.
And if I can anyone can.
I'm scared no one will ever see that in me. They'll never see that same kid in me I want to keep alive because he's just so fuckin' romantic and naive and sweet.
But, maybe someone can see it.
I got ripped in order to get rid of my addiction. Every time I needed a hit I'd lift weights for an hour and I'm shredded now. Lean but shredded. And that scares me. It's not my body. And it feels like I can never go back to be that scared, sweet loser kid. And this is weird to say but that sweet, loser kid was so nice and I want to keep him. He was a loser sure, everyone called him ugly at worst and didn't notice him at best, but he was ME. And he was so nice. I don't want to lose him. I want someone to be able to see him in me and I'm terrified one day I'll just be another older man who's dreams are all gone and youth faded away and no one sees who he once was.

Jeez I really went on here, my bad.