How can I stop living my life in fear?
Have been living my life in fear and paranoia for the past 7-10 years. Fear of my past mistakes, life, relationships and just living out my comfort zone.
[b]Past mistakes:[/b] I've gotten into many arguments with people in the past. Many of whom became good friends. Always afraid that some people might try to hurt me and/or my loved ones for our past encounters. I know it's mostly in my head.
[b]Life:[/b] I work as a graphic designer, been trying to move from my parents but they are so protective and afraid to let me go. It's getting to the point that I can't take it anymore and will just leave. At 30, I need to make a life for myself.
[b]Relationships:[/b] I've had the worst luck with women, ever since I was kid I was known as the ugly boy that girls wanted to be friends with but never wanted to date. I was often made fun of because of my appearance. Even when I tried to approach girls, they just did me dirty. As a got older, people say I glowed up. I now get attention from women but since I am not use to talking to women I am afraid to approach. Not to sound cocky, but if I had more confidence I would be in a relationship.
[b]Living outside my comfort zone:[/b] Due to anxiety and depression, I am afraid to try new things, do and go places by myself. I really want to save up money and backpack a few countries in Asia. I went to a community college so never really got the true college experience such as dorming, parties etc... I've never been to a bar, club, or strip club.
I know it's all in my head but I am at the crossroads.
[b]Past mistakes:[/b] I've gotten into many arguments with people in the past. Many of whom became good friends. Always afraid that some people might try to hurt me and/or my loved ones for our past encounters. I know it's mostly in my head.
[b]Life:[/b] I work as a graphic designer, been trying to move from my parents but they are so protective and afraid to let me go. It's getting to the point that I can't take it anymore and will just leave. At 30, I need to make a life for myself.
[b]Relationships:[/b] I've had the worst luck with women, ever since I was kid I was known as the ugly boy that girls wanted to be friends with but never wanted to date. I was often made fun of because of my appearance. Even when I tried to approach girls, they just did me dirty. As a got older, people say I glowed up. I now get attention from women but since I am not use to talking to women I am afraid to approach. Not to sound cocky, but if I had more confidence I would be in a relationship.
[b]Living outside my comfort zone:[/b] Due to anxiety and depression, I am afraid to try new things, do and go places by myself. I really want to save up money and backpack a few countries in Asia. I went to a community college so never really got the true college experience such as dorming, parties etc... I've never been to a bar, club, or strip club.
I know it's all in my head but I am at the crossroads.
31-35, M
