I really don't understand myself sometimes or the things I do. When faced with a decision that makes everyone happy, I don't take it.

A friend who I haven't seen in years and who I've missed was back in Chicago today and wanted to hang out, and she even suggested going to this new bar that I've been wanting to look at. And I was free all night. And yet despite everything being perfect, and that I really wanted to do it, I decided to completely ignore her and just sit around at home all night. I don't get it. Why did I do that. Why am I even here typing this now instead of going out to see my friend.

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sarabee1995 · 26-30, F

I do stuff like this and in my case it's because I sometimes have just exhausted my available "people energy" for the day.

But you are much more extroverted than I?? In fact I'm quite introverted so this is almost expected for me.

BlueMetalChick · 26-30, F

@sarabee1995 I hadn't done anything all day and hadn't expended energy of any kind. I think maybe I have a problem with doing the thing that people most expect from me. I've done this in other ways too, like refusing to take money that I won fairly even though I needed it.

sarabee1995 · 26-30, F

@BlueMetalChick Oh, interesting. I get it though. I hate when people think they know me and think they know what I should or will do. So I get the pushing back on that.