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EdDieBloo I have tried to kill myself twice over love
Now mind you I was married at 16 and had been living with the girl I married since I was 14 ,and I was closer to 17 then 16 ,,but
When she left I had someone in my bed that night .I was 23.
3 girls actually ready to fight over me ,,
I picked the wrong one and tried to make it work for 5 yrs ,she ended up with my brother dividing our family for 8 yrs
My second wife was an angel ,but a bad back ,surgery ,I became an addict and a drunk so I didn't loose everything I worked for ,,but I lost her and everything anyway ,,
Another 15 yrs with my sons Mom ,,and 7 1/2 with my last ex
But I have taken the last 7 yrs to get to know me
to reflect all the things that went wrong ,all the people I have hurt too ,and letting my childhood go that had me on my own since I was 13 ,,,crying about my past was a major issue ,women like a lost puppy they can fix for a little while
but when you keep them up until 4 am crying about your childhood while on a drunk ,they tire of it pretty quick
So now I let all that go ,,finally
and I have dated a lot of women ,and now I know a lot of them who want to marry me ,,,I only want one woman
and she is unaware I still want to marry her ,,for now
But I have found when you look for friends and not bed partners ,,then you get to know them
and I have a lot of killer female friends ,,but only 1 I would marry ,,and I lost her for 7 yrs ,,
Now I want her back ,,she loved me for me
She still loves me ,,but now there is another mans kids to consider ,,do I want to deal with him from now on ?
Now I am still concerned as to whats best for her ,I only want her to be happy ,,she has already made me a happy man for 7 1/2 yrs ,,I know that I know I love her ,and now we are talking again ,and she still loves me ,but she has things she needs to deal with now ,,its not so cut and dry when its you that now has to make the hard choices ,
But I will be happy if I am only back in her life no matter if we are together or not ,,she is my best friend and I have been lost without her .
So nothing is written in stone ,"Will she always love me "?
I have talked to woman who stayed with their husbands until one of them died ,and they all said the same thing
You fall in and out of love a million times
it only works when both are committed to see it through to the end ,,for richer or poor ,sickness and health ,till one or the other dies ,,,quitting is not an option
Pick the right one ,do not be unevenly yoked (religion ,cultures ,politics ,things you will fight over )
And make a pack ,,this is for life ,,only death will separate us .and keep your word ,no matter what .
Now that I'm 60 ,,that shouldn't be to hard LOL
the woman I love is still young ,,but ,,I know she loves me ,,it was not over me she left me
It was because I still helped my sons Mom and she was jealous ,,she said she wanted me back ,,I had to chose
I messed up ,,I said I do not let people threaten me
Take your ultimatum and leave ,,I have regretted that every since ,,but do I know she loves me ,,beyond a shadow of a doubt ,,she has already proven she does ..I let her down
