Why do I feel utterly useless in my relationship?

@soulsrespite I don't know I think it's just me, like I need validation for a lot of things and I just need that extra reassurance and I think my boyfriend doesn't see the point in it. It's really important to me idk :(

I understand that, it is important. If he can’t do that for you, and doesn’t care to start really understanding who you are, maybe he needs you to talk to him about it, make him aware of it, or honestly girl, he may not ever do that for you. @MarHar99

I talk to much, I talk all the time! The problem is I've talked to much about my shitty life that I think that no one can be bothered to hear it anymore. I don't want to weigh him down with my shit man:(

Then seek someone who will listen and you will have a continuous outlet to let it all out into. Like a therapist if you don’t want to weigh him down. Naturally he should be able to handle it, you’re in a dedicated relationship, you’re there for each other. If he won’t listen who else will? You need to let your past out, into something. You need to let that pain out. You need to heal. @MarHar99

I don't know what to do, I just feel like he doesn't deserve my constant mood changes, he really does get a lot of shit from me, I don't want to look like an attention seeker either and I don't want people to think I'm being dramatic.
I'm really stuck

Can you get a therapist? @MarHar99

I have spoken about it with a colleague but I have been with a therapist since I was nine and I didn't think it was working as she left her job and I had to get someone else, I didn't like the fact she left me and I had to see someone new. I don't want to speak to anyone else.

Then you will keep feeling the same way.. always letting it out little by little to your boyfriend, and never getting what it is you seek from him. Just talk with him. Maybe you can work something out. @MarHar99