Ever begged someone to stay in your life ?

Yes, she disappeared anyway. It took four years but she came back. After four years without her I was a broken man, she was repulsed by what I had become. I don't really know what she expected. Maybe I was supposed to thrive after my heart was ripped out. When she left me I would wake up in the middle of the night and weep and eat cookies. I turned fat, unstable and a drug user to kill the pain. No wonder she couldn't stand to look at me when she came back. I just don't know why she ever decided to come back after four years stay fucking gone.