What was your first kiss like?

I had mine on the 15th.. And I feel more broken somehow. Not like broken hearted, but not working properly. I've noticed that whenever I have a decision to make, I freeze or back into a corner and start crying. I'm scared of weird things that didn't scare me before; cars, certain colors, certain lights, especially green lights, clocks, vampires, and a few other things.. I get sidetracked by the smallest things. Yesterday I got distracted by a lid to a bottle of juice. I-I don't really know what's going on a lot of the time because I'm too busy overthinking and second guessing, and then I have to focus on getting my heart rate down and making sure I don't have a seizure.... what was this question about again? Oh yeah!! Is this normal?