Everything hurts.

I had a mental breakdown in front of my fiance. Everything I have held in over the past 5 years had come pouring out in a screaming, crying fit. All of the pain, just... I couldn't stop it. The things I have said... I didn't want him to touch me, let alone look at me. I didn't deserve his hugs or his kisses or his kind words... It didn't help that I could feel his body racking with silent sobs as he held me tightly... I feel like shit for making him cry...