Are we really that bad?
I go through a crisis every morning, waking up, believing I'm not good enough. I live with my mother and my 5 younger siblings. 4 boys and 1 girl. my mother is an absolute warrior..I love her to bits with all the hell she's been through, bad relationships...loss of her husband, my amazing dad. but the crux of what i'm addressing is....are we men so bad? hear me out for a second.
As I guy myself, being raised by a single mother...watching this warrior of a woman raise me and the rest of the kids, I've pulled as much weight as I could trying to help her and now we're all old enough to take care of ourselves, so we spend our times and effort helping her and showing her how we've progressed and she always told me, I could be a man among men....but as I look the world...I am constantly surrounded by the cries of men hating women and even my friends are shouting out these kinds of things and even when I go home...It's everywhere...my online friends...in gaming chat forums...even discord to an extent, there's always something about why we're so shit...and it's been pushing me through a suicidal complex....Yes, I want to kill myself, It's causing me anxiety to face myself as a man because it's like...let's say I do good in the world...will that matter? The loudest voices are being heard and it's the fact that men....we are so shit in the eyes of many, MANY women and it does hurt me because what if my younger sister starts thinking like that? if I do kill myself? how will my mother take it? How will my sister handle it if she finds out this was the reason why? I'm almost a breaking point...I don't want all this negativity in this world...I'm so tired of it...I get all the movements and despite all the amazing claims...it breeds animosity towards one side, no one fights for everyone....and that is sad....
As I guy myself, being raised by a single mother...watching this warrior of a woman raise me and the rest of the kids, I've pulled as much weight as I could trying to help her and now we're all old enough to take care of ourselves, so we spend our times and effort helping her and showing her how we've progressed and she always told me, I could be a man among men....but as I look the world...I am constantly surrounded by the cries of men hating women and even my friends are shouting out these kinds of things and even when I go home...It's everywhere...my online friends...in gaming chat forums...even discord to an extent, there's always something about why we're so shit...and it's been pushing me through a suicidal complex....Yes, I want to kill myself, It's causing me anxiety to face myself as a man because it's like...let's say I do good in the world...will that matter? The loudest voices are being heard and it's the fact that men....we are so shit in the eyes of many, MANY women and it does hurt me because what if my younger sister starts thinking like that? if I do kill myself? how will my mother take it? How will my sister handle it if she finds out this was the reason why? I'm almost a breaking point...I don't want all this negativity in this world...I'm so tired of it...I get all the movements and despite all the amazing claims...it breeds animosity towards one side, no one fights for everyone....and that is sad....
26-30, M
