Tired and my mind is a mess

I don't want to be who I am
I don't want to be confused anymore, or feel crazy or deluded
I don't want to feel or be responsible anymore
I want to let go
I want to be in love but I want it to be real
I want true friendships with people who know who I am and how I feel
I want to be with people who understand me.
I don't want to let anyone down though
Or hurt anyone
Or not be there if somebody needs me.