I never realized I still have unresolved issues steming back to school. Gah I feel kind of nauseous and also embarassed.

Now that summer is here and school is out that means the teens are roaming around in packs. I don't know what it is about teenage boys but they have staring problems. I actually got to spend time with my older brother today and he took me to the gym. I am far from athletic as the resident string bean of the family however it meant getting to actually talk to my brother and spend sometime together so I went along. I guess at his gym there is some teens from 14 to 19 work out free in the summer which means they are all there in packs. I always struggled in school socially and was always the outlier, the outcast, the weird kid, the one nobody saw or gave a damn about. I swear I felt like I was transported right back to those halls years ago. I felt their eyes and their judgement and it really got to me and made me feel sick to my stomach and very uncomfortable. I haven't really dealt with this feeling in awhile or if it was there it was rather mild. I graduated way back in 2008 so I do believe that I have some unresolved issues or ptsd from my school days.