Can you relate?

depression sucks..... I really hope everything could disappear but I guess you have to face obstacles in your life. Do you ever feel like giving up but then think about your loved ones and realise how much it would hurt them?

If only I didn't have people in my life that I truly care about!

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Pinkstarburst

It will bother my friends to read this but it’s me being honest with you. I have chosen to never take my own life even though I know it would relieve the hold depression has on me. My family deals with enough from me and I refuse to have them find or have to identify my body...I will not allow them to question or blame themselves for my actions. I will not break their souls because I’m where I am.

I feel like giving up all the time. It’s always in the forefront of my mind. Most nights I lie in bed and pray that I don’t wake up, that way it’s a natural death and one they can process normally.

It isn’t pain that brings these thoughts...it’s the nothing. The utter void and numbness. To actually feel something without forcing it would be pure bliss.