every weekend I commit mental suicide

via alcohol. because I just cannot cope. I don't understand life and the pain it brings. I cannot do this.

So instead of actual suicide...... cheers.

This page is a permanent link to the reply below and its nested replies. See all post replies »

Trippin · F

I too often self medicate to somehow erase those things I do not wish to face. Trying to learn tho' that pain passes and not to allow feeling to turn in to thinking for we are not our thoughts.

HellsBelle · 36-40, F

@Trippin thats why Im finding a psychiatrist now. I feel that talking and venting to someone unbiased is crucial. too much built up pain. I just need to put it somewhere away from me

Trippin · F

@HellsBelle Good for you. Get that stuff out. Embrace it and let it go. It's like..our nature to perpetuate old emotion. We ignore the present moment and live as a remnant of old pain.