I Am Sad

I am actually depressed and want to die. I am trying to decide if it's just my hormones or if it is an actual desire. Usually I can tell but not so much right now. All I want to do is cry and my feelings are flat or non existent. I am at work, I want to quit. Don't get me wrong, my life is not bad by any means, I just want out.

What do I need to do to want to again? Where do I find the want to? I know all that is within me but I struggle with desire. I lost interest and now just go through the motions. My meds can only do so much, maybe I should see a therapist but I just don't know if that really is the answer. I know my life is on me and I am the only one that can turn it around. It's not hard it's just not worth doing in my mind anyway.