he's been so sweet and cuddly the last few days. i knew i would do something terrible

my roommates mom and neice came over with chocolate cake and i was in my room with my dogs and cat. neice wanted to see the cat and she let him out while i was gaming and didn't think anything of it for some minutes. suddenly remembered that they brought cake and bubba wasn't pestering me for my slice which meant he's in the kitchen.. found him eating a piece of cake on the floor and took it away from him and gently called my roommate to the kitchen

his neice followed him in so i couldn't really ask about how much cake he ate cause she is young and neurodivergent and has terrible anxiety (we have the same diagnoses). but when i was able to ask he kind of dodged me asking how much he ate and just kept saying he'll be fine

i fed him lots and tried getting him to throw up but no luck. i'm praying he only found a tiny bit of the cake before i walked in

if i kill my moms cat i can't even kms because i still have my two dogs, one will certainly he euthanized if he went to a shelter. but idk how i'll be able to live with myself

with him being such a sweet angel baby i knew i would make some sort of horrible mistake because my carelessness always always always results in something awful when i let myself feel happy. every time i'm feeling good i make some sort of cirtical mistake, either by being stupid or careless. but even keeping in mind i need to be extra attentive because i knew something would happen soon i still failed him