I don't think I'm OK right now: a compilation of thoughts

Today was exhausting, having to lug around a good 3-5kg of stuff to work, then from work to warhammer. But lately loneliness has been getting worse too, presumably due to turning 30 and feeling worthless and alone now and forever. I'm running on what feels like empty and have been for a little while now, just going forwards on momentum alone like a zombie. And everyday life has been far more draining than it used to over the same period. It's probably one of those slumps from reflecting on life and coming up negatively. Hopefully ot will pass soon.

Also as soon as I post things it has a logged view, which seems weird? Like, is it just counting me posting as a view on that post, or is someone actually reading these? It's been bugging me a bit.

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CestManan · 46-50, F

There is this theory or whatever that by the time we are 30 we are suppose to have some huge savings, be really advanced in our career, nice home, family, well traveled etc.

That is usually not the case. Some of us are lucky if our lives are even straightened out by age 40.

I read somewhere that we should not be upset about things we want but do not have. We should be happy for things we don't want and don't have.

If you do not have a nagging spouse nor screaming brat kids to deal with, that is "rich" in a big way.

KiwiDan · 31-35, M

@CestManan What I have is a mother who screamed at me about "being 30 with nothing to show for it". Most of my issues with turning 30 relate to two things:

1) surviving to 30 when I'd planned my life to end at 20
2) Wanting to find love but not getting anywhere.

CestManan · 46-50, F

@KiwiDan A lot of people who do have something to show when they are 30 are also hopelessly in debt.

At your age it is typical to want love, romance, and bedroom fun. I wish I had some words of wisdom there but my last relationship ended on a bad enough note that I have not even thought of wanting "love".

People want to turn someone else's life completely upside down and then just walk out one day.