Not sure if I'm ready

My therapist thinks I really need to start talking about my sister. I never do. Only the day she was killed. I rarely talk about her when she was alive because it hurts to much. But he feels it's is important for me to do this. I've pretty blocked out any good memories of her. I never think of them. I only think back to the that day! I just don't know if I can do this. He's not forcing me or anything it's just a recommendation that he thinks will help.

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YoMomma ·

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Cigarguy · 41-45, M

@YoMomma I don't want to do this but it's something I have to do. I can't keep this inside me much longer

YoMomma ·

@Cigarguy may i ask what happened to her or is it too personal?

Cigarguy · 41-45, M

@YoMomma she was hit by a car and killed walking home from school. My parents had to pick me up at my school because I was having a hard day and wasn't allowed to ride the bus or walk home, it was too far. So they had to pick me up instead of her. It was cold and rainy and she got hit . She was killed instantly. It's a guilty I have never been able to get over

YoMomma ·

@Cigarguy oh 🙁 i think you mentioned this before in one of your stories.. i’m sorry this happened to you and her and your family.. obviously you can blame yourself for being the indirect cause of her death but you didn't do it intentionally it was a series of unfortunate events .. the weather the driving conditions your panic attacks the location of everything.. 😐 its not your fault and you couldn't help it or I'm sure you would have 🥹 sigh.. you should talk about her and the wonderful person that she was when she was 🥹 i know its hard and painful to remember happy memories when the person is gone so prematurely but 😭 you should remember her and talk about her and don't take all the guilt on yourself because you are innocent.. blame the rain if anything 😢