My friend died
My beautiful friend, 44, took her own life.
Leaving a devestated mother who is herself battling stage 4 cancer.
My friend was molested when she was a child and never recovered. This seems to happen with many child victims of abuse. It's easy to say that one should "get over" the past but we have childhoods for a reason, we need to learn and develop in safety and security, ideally with love, to develop healthy self esteem, understand and implement appropriate boundaries, and form stable, healthy relationships.
In her early twenties my friend became a stripper. She recently told me that it was the first time she felt truly at home, because everyone there was as broken as she was.
I'm not into moralising. I do however have a relationship with Jesus. I struggle with some parts of the bible. But I don't put myself above God. I know there are Christians out there who have read the bible and believe my friend is in hell.
I do not believe this. My God is a God of mercy and compassion.
After I found out that she had passed I felt my friend's presence and it was a beautiful thing. I felt as if she was now healed of all her brokeness and happy.
She's left a debris field behind though. "Suicide doesn't end the pain, it passes it onto others. "
Life can be so very cruel.
May God have mercy on us all.
Except, of course, for pedophiles.
Leaving a devestated mother who is herself battling stage 4 cancer.
My friend was molested when she was a child and never recovered. This seems to happen with many child victims of abuse. It's easy to say that one should "get over" the past but we have childhoods for a reason, we need to learn and develop in safety and security, ideally with love, to develop healthy self esteem, understand and implement appropriate boundaries, and form stable, healthy relationships.
In her early twenties my friend became a stripper. She recently told me that it was the first time she felt truly at home, because everyone there was as broken as she was.
I'm not into moralising. I do however have a relationship with Jesus. I struggle with some parts of the bible. But I don't put myself above God. I know there are Christians out there who have read the bible and believe my friend is in hell.
I do not believe this. My God is a God of mercy and compassion.
After I found out that she had passed I felt my friend's presence and it was a beautiful thing. I felt as if she was now healed of all her brokeness and happy.
She's left a debris field behind though. "Suicide doesn't end the pain, it passes it onto others. "
Life can be so very cruel.
May God have mercy on us all.
Except, of course, for pedophiles.
