i plan to commit suicide this is the end i now know the truth about my past it is time for me to end my life

Since you now know the truth about your past, you can now use that truth as a guide into a more profitable future. In the same way, your GPS system can get you anywhere you want to go. But, in order to do that, it first has to know where you are. You now know where you are. You can use that advantageously. Don't waste your new-found knowledge by passing up this opportunity.