Contemplating suicide

I completely understand that feeling. Because I felt like I was born as someone with the wrong gender or maybe my job/home situation is not where I want it to be... To prove that I was masculine as a man I started getting rid of my "girly" clothes and things I joined armed forces but I had to separate because I have this serious depression problem. Failed boot camp and then after a serious meltdown they put me in a hospital. After hospitalization I was separated back into civilian status. I would of had a great career however my depression hurt my chances of being successful. Im struggling with my own job. Every shift is a miracle to get through. It dosen't help that Im surrounded by a**holes that bully me IRL and online. Just for being me.

No one should take their life its not worth it. Please seek help, I promise it's worth it to live. Even though it's soo f'ing hard. Just play the game on hard mode. Be careful friends...