I can't believe that I'll never talk to you again or spend hours texting back and forth throughout the day. I am so numb I'm not even sure what I feel. Gone wayy too soon and I hate that im so far away. I'll say goodbye in my own way. You meant more to me than I ever let you know and now you will never know. You fought this horrible illness for years, I am just hoping your pain has eased. I'll miss you every single day. I have loved/cared about you since I was 14 years old. We had always been there for each other and I hatr that I wasnt there for you in your last hours. I know how hard you struggled and fought and I do not think you were at all selfish. I hope like hell ill see you one day again. Until then ill mourn and miss you and try my best to go on even with you gone.
