Trying to end it all once more Dad busts down my door A struggle a fight A snap of broken bones Gun slips free While mom phones
Red and blue lights take me away Not sure this time how long I'll stay I bite and kick scream and pound Sharp sting sedation Awaken bound It's for your safety they tell me They know I'd end me if I were free
Lay say nothing what can I say? I'm happy I'm alive? Another day I'm just a void of anguish pain despair Is keeping me alive really fair? My family come I stay numb I cannot undo what I've done Can't say sorry that's lost all meaning I just want one night I don't wake screaming
I considered shooting my dad when I was a little kid, I had the chance too often enough since he's a gun nut and he was always giving me loaded guns to fire.
