Sometimes i want to end myself. [I Feel Suicidal]

There have been many events that have taken place these past few weeks some good, some very tragic and painful.

Suicide has been on my mind but that's a normal thing for me.

Suicide is always on my mind.

Sometimes it get really bad.
When it does I just sit on the floor rocking myself or lay there.
I dont move because if I do I feel I will try to end myself.

My last suicide attempt was 2 years ago.
I stopped using any kind of substance about 2 years ago.

I'm getting better but it's a slow process.